I have not blogged in forever...so much has happened and i am doing so many things that i simply have not had time!
There is a HUGE chance carlos and I are moving to NYC. We have been thinking about it for so long but really never took any action to make it happen. This time its different..i am flying to NYC in 2 weeks to speak to an advisor @ FIT to see how many of my credits transfer and to look at apartments. Transferring to FIT in itself is a major dream that i have always had but really never thought it was possible and for Carlos's music and sound theres a huge market that there is not in Miami.
In the midst of the excitement of the possibility of moving...i have this sad, scary feeling in the pit of my stomach. I have never lived away from my mom or my brother and i am not sure that i can start now. After my parents divorce they both became closer to me than ever before and i am not sure i am goin to be able to be apart from them. Its this anxiousness that even keeps me up at night...i honestly dont know what to do...I want to follow my dreams and reach my potential career wise but i am not certain i am willing to sacrifice my family to follow that dream.
Now, i am praying and seeking that God will provide a CLEAR answer and path for me to follow.
I dont want to always have wondered..."what if i had moved" but i also dont want it to be the beginning of a long distance relationship with my family.
There is a HUGE chance carlos and I are moving to NYC. We have been thinking about it for so long but really never took any action to make it happen. This time its different..i am flying to NYC in 2 weeks to speak to an advisor @ FIT to see how many of my credits transfer and to look at apartments. Transferring to FIT in itself is a major dream that i have always had but really never thought it was possible and for Carlos's music and sound theres a huge market that there is not in Miami.
In the midst of the excitement of the possibility of moving...i have this sad, scary feeling in the pit of my stomach. I have never lived away from my mom or my brother and i am not sure that i can start now. After my parents divorce they both became closer to me than ever before and i am not sure i am goin to be able to be apart from them. Its this anxiousness that even keeps me up at night...i honestly dont know what to do...I want to follow my dreams and reach my potential career wise but i am not certain i am willing to sacrifice my family to follow that dream.
Now, i am praying and seeking that God will provide a CLEAR answer and path for me to follow.
I dont want to always have wondered..."what if i had moved" but i also dont want it to be the beginning of a long distance relationship with my family.
6 comments:
O girl, everything is going to be okay. You'll find the path of what it is that your meant to do. It just takes time, and when that time comes you'll be happy with either place. I know that it's a lot to shallow but God will led you to the way. Regardless of where you go you will learn to adjust and this is just a stepping stone in to a better realtionship with you and carlos and also with your mom and brother. Good luck girl and if you need anything, you know I'm here for you! Just look for me in the instrument area! haha
xoxo Tati
Dear Olivia,
WOW! I just got to know you, and but, your doing something, that IM trying to decide, although it isn't NY but, have never been there before. Want to go!
But, your dreams are important and you need to follow your dream. If not you will always wonder.
I will miss! I know a church there that is like CBG if you want the info let me know.
Come by and see me at Church before you go, I will Miss! This blog was amazing on how I found it and met you and your brother.
Oli~ Just a lil advice from someone who has been three years removed from their family. No doubt it's tough and there are times when I wish I was in Tennessee. Yet I knew God wanted me to mature in my faith in Him by moving away and following my passion. If your heart is truly aligned with His Will you will have an overwhelming peace and excitement after the decision is made. I am praying for you, carlos, and your bro! sigh. I am silently sad that your're not moving to Nashvegas. I was hoping we'd score a gem like you and your family there. :) hehe
OHHH. EMMM. GEEEEEE.
i have missed soo much things i knew that u had that plan but kno it's like a really strong fact! it will be amazing that u move to NY.. really im not sayimg it like it's cool bcz i wanna go every years to NY.. well.. kind of.. hahaha just kiddin' but in NY you'll find an amazingly huge market for carlos's music and for ur fashion stuff too! but moving away from family is something that someday it's gonna come.. at first it will be hard but we are strong and young so we'll kno how to overcome it.. obviously u have to pray and ask God for a guide.. family is important.. but u have to see the persuit of ur dreams as a priority bcz if u triumph ur fam will be happy and proud! :]
look at carlos he wanted to persuit his music dream.. he moved away from us.. thounsands of miles away from ecuador.. now he's seeing that dream coming true and we are proud of him! just follow God's Will!
by the way.. i miss u too!! i really want to see ya!! i think this summer it's gonna be difficult.. im really praying to go..
Hey Olivia... missing your blogging... Happy new year! :)
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